"Moreover, I have boundary issues with men. Or maybe that's not fair to say. To have issue with boundaries, one must have boundaries in the first place, right? But I disappear into the person I love. I am the permeable membrane. If I love you, you can have everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog's money, my dog's time- everything. If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word), I will protect you from your own insecurity, I will project upon you all sorts of good qualities that you have never actually cultivated in yourself and I will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else."
I'm hearing this word everywhere: INFATUATION.
It's a sign I need to get over mine. -_-
isnt she wonderful?
ReplyDeletei love her writings.
infatuation.
ReplyDeletea word we learn in middle school..a word that haunts us for the rest of our lives.
i hate.
i think infatuations are things you can easily look back upon and wonder, "what was i thinking?" :)
ReplyDeletehow sweet of your dad to do that for your mom! swooooon
Wow, I love this entry. Who's the author?
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